[00:00.00] 作曲 : Stephen Manderson/Alex 'Cores' Hayes/Edward Hayes[00:44.73]I only went and ******* did it[00:46.46]Used to be a dream but now I ******* live it[00:49.31]Weren't even writing raps I was down and out about to ******* quit it[00:53.64]Lucky for me that I ******* didn't[00:56.31]See lily came along when I was at my lowest[00:59.73]Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with[01:02.89]I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her,[01:06.44]Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurred[01:09.58]Back with the bag,with the bag full of herbs init[01:11.43]Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it[01:13.14]My name started causing murmurs in the industry[01:15.68]But none of these labels would work with it until virgin did[01:17.77]Put my first single out and we earned a hit[01:20.28]That's why whenever Phillipe and Darkus hear me[01:22.36]I know it must burn a bit[01:23.78]Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it[01:26.13]The day I risked everything for[01:27.89]I couldn't have given anything more[01:30.23]All these years have weighed heavey[01:32.07]But this is something that nothing could have readied me for[01:35.12]What,you think all my problems are remedied[01:37.57]Cos i get an applause!?they're not![01:39.01]Today I cried,and i don't know why[01:46.09]But today I cried and I don't know why[01:53.38]Today I cried,and i don't know why[02:00.20]But today I cried and I don't know why[02:07.75]My single went in at 3then my album went in at 2[02:11.15]For a debut not too shabby,[02:12.69]if I have to I'll make do[02:14.67]Finally some form of reward for the things I came through[02:18.13]But it's different to the perfect picture people paint you[02:21.69]On the way up you might be a person people take to[02:25.25]Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate too[02:28.66]All of a sudden anything you may do may make news[02:32.36]And I'm sick to death of explaining was is and aint'true![02:35.93]Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same to[02:39.36]Though I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take two[02:42.98]And ungrateful I would hate to seem,cos'I'm leaving the dream now[02:47.00]But I don't sleep now,and all these hours awake are making me senile[02:50.55]Snapped every time i'm seen out,even people I been round[02:53.42]My whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me now[02:56.22]They say I've changed but I really don't see how[02:58.20]I've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round[03:00.79]Never knowing what it is I'm trying to seek out[03:02.92]But I'm even beginning to question me now[03:04.42]Today I cried and I don't know why[03:11.34]But today I cried and I don't know why (why?)[03:18.64]Today I cried and I don't know why[03:25.45]But today I cried and I don't know why (i don't know why i cried)[03:33.38]I know it must seem mad to you it's mad to me[03:36.29]All I've done is what I've had to do,been who I've had to be[03:39.65]But the path I've walked has been so gravely[03:42.49]It's been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity[03:46.82]Thankfully,I had nan who was a mum and dad to me[03:50.90]You can choose your friends,but you can't use your family[03:53.71]Temporary,happiness for me has been a fallacy[03:57.18]"His so sad,isn't he?"stick your sympathy it means jack to me[04:01.19]I'm sick of hearing how happy I should be[04:03.58]I just don't know how to be[04:05.32]I can no longer pretend no more making out to be[04:09.18]Maybe all I needs a slap,someone to shake it out of me[04:12.49]Help me dispel my irrational thoughts and think more rationally[04:15.84]I'm sick of being in this state of anomie,it's agony[04:19.09]Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity?[04:23.06]Can it be,I'm really just obsessed with myself?[04:25.99]Obsessive compulsive depressed my pressures reflecting my health?[04:29.81]Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself[04:33.14]Rejected therapy no I just won't accept any help[04:36.56]I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I lied[04:41.35]I was asked how I was and I said I was fine,I'm not![04:44.47]Today I cried,and I don't know why[04:50.95]But today I cried and I don't know why[04:58.32]Today I cried,and I don't know why[05:05.13]But today I cried and I don't know why[05:12.40]Today I cried,and I don't know why[05:19.41]But today I cried and I don't know why[05:26.89]Today I cried,and I don't know why[05:33.54]But today I cried and I don't know why