Fixated - One Eye Closed.mp3

[00:00.00] 作词 : Rei
[00:01.00] 作曲 : Rei/NONE
[00:15.75]Every time I lie is another day alone
[00:20.58]With nobody else at home
[00:23.55]And every time I cry is another moment into stone
[00:28.23]Pour cement into my bones
[00:30.27]And I stay up all night in low light
[00:33.18]Get myself stuck in my own mind
[00:34.74]Cause I'm so fixated in you
[00:36.99]Thinking about all we went through
[00:38.97]After all these years thinking
[00:40.89]I got myself sinking down into nothing
[00:44.73]Spend all my self-loathing, yeah
[01:02.58]Most days, I find myself contemplating in bed
[01:04.50]And always, I get myself trapped inside of my head
[01:06.45]I won't say that I'm happy when I'm not, but instead
[01:08.34]Every day, to myself, I fantasize being dead
[01:10.86]And I wonder how much longer do I falter?
[01:12.36]How much further? Will I ever become stronger
[01:13.77]Like my mother and my father?
[01:14.76]Will I ever get to conquer mental monsters that I conjured?
[01:16.74]I will never find an answer, so I ponder and I wander
[01:18.69]I'm another complex runner
[01:19.56]I wanna cover when I suffer, but I stutter
[01:21.09]And the thunder got me running for the covers
[01:22.50]I'm still the same, stuck in last summer
[01:23.97]Looking back
[01:24.54]Looping back forever
[01:26.10]All the confusion that goes with delusion
[01:29.73]The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
[01:31.83]Is nothing but stress-induced
[01:33.30]And sometimes I slip from the saddle
[01:36.99]Whenever these demons win the battle
[01:40.59]Flood my head with thoughts 'til I rattle
[01:44.31]And all of these words are making it worse
[01:47.04]Every time I cry is another day alone
[01:51.51]With nobody else at home
[01:53.55]And every time I lie is another moment into stone
[01:59.28]Pour cement into my bones
[02:18.24]Lack of a heart, but persist to exist
[02:20.34]Art is my biggest assist
[02:21.72]Cannot pertain to a kiss
[02:23.01]And I have to resist
[02:24.06]And dismiss a flick to my wrist
[02:25.62]Once in a while, I rely on a dial
[02:27.54]Memories of you got me crying in denial
[02:29.49]Life is a trial, but it's hard to compile
[02:31.32]A list of defenses to make it worthwhile
[02:33.18]Mental fences are chainlink to senses
[02:37.11]Consensus commences pretenses
[02:39.03]And this, here, now dispenses offences, yeah
[02:41.58]All the confusion that goes with delusion
[02:45.33]The feel of intrusion from lack of solution
[02:47.25]Is nothing but stress-induced
[02:48.87]Every time I cry is another day alone
[02:53.46]With nobody else at home
[02:56.49]And every time I lie is another moment into stone
[03:01.17]Pour cement into my bones
[03:03.15](Every time I cry)
[03:03.52](No one else at home)
[03:03.96](And I feel so cold)
[03:04.44]Every time I cry is another day alone
[03:09.00]With nobody else at home
[03:12.09]And every time I lie is another moment into stone
[04:04.77]Pour cement into my bones